Trains

Hi everyone. I hope you are all doing good =) Yesterday Boater went out and got all the supplies to build Little Guy a platform for a train to go around his room. It is like right overtop the door, of course I had to help. He spent all day and evening on it and it's still not done. I would love to do his room with trains. I even looked to see if they had any toddler train beds besides Thomas the tank and only found one but Boater didn't like it =( so now I'm looking for a car theme and still no luck, he already has a car bed. I did find a nascar border but they don't have anything to go with it. I would like to find a theme that has curtains bedding and border that matches the yellow walls and blue carpet. Boater did say we cold repaint his room.
Seems like I've done chased a lot of ppl away from reading my blog or I'm just that boring ppl don't want to read it anymore....lol and I get some ppl that come on and never leave comments. I always try to leave a comment when I go to everyones blog =)
Little guy has been such a stinker lately. I wish I knew how to get him to stop hitting me and screaming when he don't get his way. The other day I was in the kitchen making dinner and he comes in there and starts pulling my pants and underwear down. I am usually in pj's since I bearly go anywhere so it's not hard for him to pull them down. I thought it would only be a 1 time thing but I was wrong. I try telling him that's not nice to stop . I just hope he don't decide to do it when we have ppl over..lol
Thats about it here. I hope everyone has a great day.

Howdy

Hi blogging buddies =) How is everyone? I hope you are having a great weekend! Mine has been boring..lol Boater has been working like 12 hr days since last Sunday he said he may be home early today . I hope so Little Guy and I miss him bunches.
The babymaking is now over with so now we just have to wait. Want to hear something silly? I would love to have twins..lol I know I am crazy. There is a chance that I could since I am a twin and me and my brother are the first so we don't know if it skips a generation or not and Boaters grandmom had 2 sets of twins and there have been none since, also with me being on this clomid can cause mutiple pregnancys my doctor said they have had women get pregnant with as many as triplets on this medicine . I told Boater that I would love to have twins and he said if I have twins then he's leaving...lol (yeahright) I am nervous that I'm gonna start my period. I had a spot of blood last night like the size of a pea and today I woke up and my back is really hurting. I have been bloated all week and my bbs have been sore all week to. I hope this is not TMI but this is why I created this blog was so I had a place I can go to , to just jot down my feeling as I go through this journey of trying to get pregnant. I know that if I do get my period theres always next month and if I have to go through all of this again I will be using the ovulation predictor tests. Maybe it will help me determine when around I'm gonna ovulate if I do see thats my problem I don't ovulate and thats what the clomid is used for. I have read that by using clomid it may give you a false positive with the ovualtion predictor test but it will be worth the try. Poor Boaters like I sure hope we don't have to go through this again I am wore out....lol (this coming from a guy) I guess he's getting old LMAO
Little Guy is doing good. He just keeps getting more silly everyday =) I just love him to pieces =) I sit here and wonder why a lot you know, why can't I be normal, why can't we get pregnant like most ppl and my mom gets on me and say's stop wondering why and be greatfull for what you have, but I still wonder all those things and more.
I hope everyone has a great rest of the weekend.

Same Ole Shit...lol

Hi everyone. I hope everyone is having a good Thursday. Not to much going on you know same shit different day. Boater took a break yesterday from babymaking which pissed me off...lol but there is always next month and like I've said before I'm not getting my hopes up all we can do is try.
Little Guy is doing great, still a little monster I swear he is all boy! He came to me today and said he wanted to ride daddys car all I could do was laugh and told him he has what 14 more years for that. I have been very lazy in the potty training department. A friend of mine gave me a website where you can print out the potty charts so I'm gonna get him some Spongebob and Dora stickers Thank You Gina =)
Boater has been working a lot this week due to the rebuild of the drumstick machine but he got his goal assesment (sp) done today and plus got a $1.45 raise woo hoo you go guy. I am so proad of my hubby. His boss is like are you gonna be here for 20 yrs...lol he said well he don't plan on looking to go anywhere right now. I sure hope not this is the best job he has ever had! Thats about it. I hope everyone has a great rest of the day.

Hi!

Hello, Not to much going on same old shit different day...lol. Little Guy got home Sunday around 3:30. My sister said he missed me =) she had a hard time getting him to sleep, she said he would go to her bedroom door knocking on it saying I want mama lets go then he would call for his uncle which he calls him rarr and telling him he wants to go get mama and daddy aww that just broke my heart when she told me that. He did have a good time she said. Her kids came over again Saturday night so he had them to play with they just love him to pieces, she said he even sat there and watched a movie wow that surprised me he is always on the go here. He will be visiting her again at the end of Feb. she is gonna take him the weekend of our anniversary =).
This babymaking is tougher then I thought it would be...lol I am not use to getting it everyday due to the fact that my periods don't like to leave. I even had to sit in a hot bath yesterday. I mean don't get me wrong it is great and it is bringing us closer it's almost like it was when we first got married but it sure does wear ya out...lol Boater even said it feels like were newlyweds =) I'm just hoping all this hard work pays off. I am getting a little worried I think my period wants to come on not sure though I am bloated and my boobs hurt from time to time. I am still thinking positive though.
I wish I knew how to get this blog updated and get a name for it, everytime I try to think of a name my mind goes blank. I would also like to come up with a name other then JC but the only nicknames Boater calls me is either mama or nettybutt or his special lady and I wouldn't use none of them...lol oh well I guess it will do for now.
I hope everyone has a great day!

Waiting Anxiously!

I am here just waiting for my Little Guy to come home. I have missed him terribly. It's almost 3 PM. Boater had to work today and I am so bored I am going crazy...lol
We had a great day yesterday even though it flew by. Boater didn't get up till around 12:30 PM so we just chilled a bit watched some TV and got on the pc for a bit. He went shopping by his self, I just didn't feel like going so he got some fish and shrimp while he was out and cooked that when he came home so we had a nice romantic candle lit dinner and listen to some music. Then it was alone, alone time...lol. He had to get to bed early since he had to get up for work today. I fell a sleep on the loveseat watching Masters of Horror , then at like 3:19 I got woken up by Boater . Apparently the dog had diarrhea and Boater stepped in it when he got out of bed eeewwww (better him then me) He thought I was gonna clean that up (yeahright) So he did clean it up and I put the dog outside till I got up incase she had to go again. I didn't want it on the new carpet.
So not much going on today just waiting for my Little Guy to get home then we'll hang out with my sister have dinner which we always do when she comes over. Then it will be babymaking time =)

What a Day!!

Little Guy and I woke up later then usual that threw my day off some but I had us ready when Boater got home which he was late getting home because he wanted to talk to someone to see if he got his bonus check which is the profit sharing he gets every month and to ask why hasn't he gotten his dollar raise that he was suppose to get after 90 days but of course the guy had already went home =( . So we leave around 4:15 and of course we go at rush hour so it took longer then we thought. Well my sister gives Boater crappy directions which we should have just gone with the directions off of map quest. We get lost and we called her she was like ok I'm coming so we are sitting at a Turkey Hill store waiting, Little Guy is crying throwing a fit in his car seat ppl are looking at us like were crazy or gonna rob the store, so I told Boater to go in and find out if there were anymore Turkey Hills on that street so we leave there and as we were going to another one we past them , so I blew the horn and we pulled over until they got in front of us. Then my idiot sister blew through a yellow light and of course when we went through it it was red, and guess what? We got pulled over by an undercover cop =(. Boater got a ticket for $106 and some change and a possible 3 points UGH!! He took it better then I thought he would. He is still upset about it but more upset that he didn't stop when he knew he should have . So we finally get to my sisters and had dinner and chilled for awhile. I had to beg my ex-BIL so 3 of my nieces could come over to visit. My one neice has the chicken pox and he didn't want the other ones to come over due to them being around her. I wasn't worried cuz Little Guy got his chicken pox shot and even if that didn't work I feel it's better he gets it now then later. Boater didn't get them until he was 25 and boy did he go through hell. I got to see the cats and they look like they like it there so that made me feel good =).
We got home a little after 11PM I did have a few drinks but had a headache so I didn't drink that much =( I seem to always get a headache before I want to drink here lately. Boater and I spent a little time together then we went to watch Day's from that day and he fell a sleep right at the start of it , so here I am trying to watch it with his snoring...lol I did manage to watch it and I wanted to watch my other shows like Passions, Ghost Whisper and Trading Spouses but didn't want to listen to his snoring anymore so I just went to bed. I can not remember the last time I was in bed before 2 AM..lol. So today were just gonna chill we may go to the store and get a few things but other then that it's just gonna be a nice quiet day enjoying each other =). I hope everyone has a great weekend!!

TGIF!!!

TGIF Everyone!! I hope everyones having a great day. I am getting ready to get Little Guy in the shower with me, he don't really care for showers but I'm trying to save time. I did get his nails cut which is a job . I use to do them when he was sleeping but that don't work anymore =( We will be taking him over my sisters when Boater gets home. Boater did take off tomorrow so we will be able to chill for a bit. I may have a few drinks not sure though (it may be my last chance Hopefully..lol) It's gonna be nice to have Boater all to myself tomorrow, but we might be getting our bedroom straightened up.
Little Guy's favorite word is no and it's driving me crazy...lol I'm hoping it's just a phase he has added un uh to it. so now it's no unuh mama he's a little stinker. Well got to get moving I hope everyone has a great rest of the day =)

Hi

Not really much going on. I have been very lazy and don't know why. I mean I am a little lazy but the past few days I haven't felt like doing anything at all...lol
I took the last clomid yesterday. It couldn't be better timing for my sister to take Little Guy for the weekend. I read that ppl should ovulate 5-9 days after you take your last pill but to start trying 2 to 3 days before that =) wooo hooo I just hope that the clomid gets me to ovulate. I am starting to get anxious.
Boater was such a sweetie yesterday. I had fallen a sleep on the loveseat after I put Little Guy down for his nap ( I just can't help falling a sleep in that thing) Well I was waiting for him to get home so we could watch Days, so anyhoo he wakes me up and has a big order of boardwalk fries w/vinegar . They were so yummy. When I was pregnant with Little Guy and when we were at this certain mall I always had to stop and get them ...lol Don't ya just love it when they do little things like that for ya =)
I hope they don't work him to hard in the next few weeks. They are getting ready to do a rebuild and when he first started there a few months ago his first week they were doing one he worked 79 hrs that first week and I think he almost worked that the second week to . We hardley saw him.
Well I have to get my lazy butt up or I'm not going to...lol I hope everyone has a great day!

Tired!

I have been so tired the last day or two, but when I go to lay down it takes me forever to get to sleep. AF is almost gone and making it's way to you Blue =) .
We had a pretty good day besides me being a little bitch...lol We took Little Guy to the doctors to get his second dose of the flu shot. He was such a big boy , he didn't even cry! Just like his mama =) Then we went to the store to pick up a few things. While we were done there we stopped in Rite Aid so I could get a little pocket calender so I can keep track of when I started the prometrium and the clomid and all the other good stuff...lol that way I'll have it incase the doctors asks. I did that last time and maybe it will help me this time since I pretty much know the day we got pregnant . I did read up on clomid a little bit last night. Last time I had to chart my temp. but I don't see what good that does I never could tell ...lol
Boater said we'll take Little Guy to my sisters on Friday but I better be ready when he gets home...lol They are going to be doing a rebuild at his job next week and don't get any days off =( I told him he better have some energy when he gets home, if not go buy some vitamins.
I need to get back into getting Little Guy on the potty. Were gonna start again tomorrow . I would have kept up with it if I didn't have AF so bad last week. I hope you all have had a good day =)

A Fairly Nice Day!

We had a pretty good day today. Boater had to work till 2:30 PM. I got uup and changed and fed Little Guy goofed off for a bit and finish straightening up what I didn't get to yesterday. Aunt Flo is still kicking my butt =( but it does seem to be slowing a little I know TMI...lol
Boater went and got his mom on his way home from work and when they got here Little Guy was napping. I let him sleep for a bit then got him up. They played and we ate dinner then we played for a bit then Boater took her home. I only got irritated once while she was here...lol Little Guy keeps getting on the coffee table and he'll lay on it stand up on it and I have tried everything to get him to stop with no luck! So tonight he's standing on it and I'm trying to get him to understand that you don't do that, for 1 and for 2 that you could fall and get hurt. So what does she do? She's like what ya doing dancing, then she says yay and starts clapping. I'm thinking to myself Hello haven't you heard me getting on him about not doing that and here she is like saying it's ok to get up there UGH!
I talked to my sister last night and the cats are doing just great. They are out and about and even playing with my sister's kitten. She wants us to bring Little Guy up Friday so she can have him for the weekend. So I think we are I wasn't sure cuz Boater gets up so darn early on Saturdays that I didn't know if he would be up for an hour drive both ways, but he said we will be taking him. I was like Hello it will be baby making time hopefully and this way we won't have to worry I mean I'll still worry about my Little Guy but we won't have to worry about him walking in on us or whatever. I'm gonna think positive but really am not gonna get my hopes up that I'll get pregnant the first cycle on the cloimd. When I got pregnant with Little Guy I was on 150 mg , she started me out on 100 mg this time I forgot why she did that..lol What mg are you going to be on Blue if I may ask? My doctor only goes up to 200 mg and then she said if nothing happens I'll have to go see a fertility spec. =( I figure it worked once it should work again, but I am getting older to.
Not to much else went on today. We did have flurries but that was all it was :( I would like to have at least 5 inches Little Guy just loves snowmen and I would love to help him make a little one :)
I hope everyone has had a great day =)

Another Yucky Day!

It is so nasty looking outside gray, gloomy and raining. I hate days like this when I have a lot to get done. I have not been good on potty training Little Guy the past 2 days. Aunt Flo is really kicking my butt! I have been very crampy and it has been very heavy. I am glad that I will be starting the clomid today, maybe it will slow it down.
I have to unload and reload the dishwasher (I love that thing...lol saves so much time) straighten up little guys room, clean the bathroom and straighten up the living room. Boaters mom is suppose to be coming over tomorrow to have dinner and spend some time with Little Guy. She say's she misses him (yeahright whatever)
Little Guy has been into Dora lately he just loves her and Boots but it's driving me crazy. I have even recorded some shows on the DVR just to have them . I play it when Boater goes to bed since he goes to bed so early I put it on so Little Guy will be quiet so daddy can go to sleep..
I called my sister the other day to see how the cats were doing and got my brother instead. He said they were doing good. one was still out of site and the other won't leave him alone...lol I thought that was weird cuz I thought that it would be the other way around, the one cats thats hiding is the one I thought would be out and about and the one that is , is the one I thought they wouln't see for at least a month. I do miss them and I hate to say this but not as much as I thought I would.
Boater wants to take our dog and get her fixed. Someone at his work told him that his vet told him that if you don't breed a lager breed dog at least once they are more likely to get uterine cancer and the guy never did bredd his dog and she had to be put to sleep due to getting uterine cancer. I could breed her but she only have a limited license and I wouldn't be able to register her puppys and I don't have the $400.00 right now to take her back to get checked to see if she is of breeding quality. The woman we bought her from said she didn't charge us the full amount because we said she would be a family dog. She said she usually charges $1,000.00 and only charged ua $600.00 so we would have to pay the difference if we wanted her to get a full registration. I could probably still make money off of her puppys but not as much so I just don't think it's worth it. Plus it is really disgusting having to put a doggie pad on her for at least 14 days.
Well I have to get myself motivated and get this place straightened up. I hope you all have a great day!

Happy 17th Birthday Amber Lynn!! We love you Bunches!!!!

Today is my nieces birthday. She is now 17. I can not believe how fast time has gone by. It seems like only yesterday Boater and I were taking her to Kings Domion on a company outing, she was only 4. Now she has grown up to be a very beautiful young lady. I remember when she was a baby and my sister and I would tell ppl that she was mine cuz she looked more like me then she did my sister...lol My sister say's she even acts like me and she catches herself calling her my name...lol. I am feeling so old right now. Today is also a good friend of mines Birthday.
Happy Birthday Holli!!! I hope you have a Wonderful Day!

Potty Training Time

I started potty training Little Guy Today =) . I thought that maybe he's ready , the other day we were downstairs and he kept saying pee pee so I turn to look at him and he had his pants down pointing at his wee wee (thats what we call it) I had to find his potty cuz Boater let him play with it, I washed it up and put him on it a few times today. He did get like 2 little poopies in the potty.WTG Little Guy!! He did start getting upset when I put him on it a few times. In the evening I stopped I was not feeling good and my cycle is real heavy right now. I am even affraid to sit on the furniture thats how bad it is. I know TMI I feel so worn out today to. I can not wait till Friday , from what I remember once I start taking the clomid it slows down and is gone by the last day I'm on it.
It was such an ugly day it rained all day. It's days like this when I just want to sleep all day..lol Boater was so tired today he slept for like 2 hours when he got home then I had to get him up cuz I needed a shower . When I got out of the shower he was feeding Little Guy , then went back to bed a little while after that. I hate that he has to get up so early to go to work and they are talking about him coming in an hour earlier . So that means he will be getting up at 1:30 AM. He got his first review last week, he was suppose to have had 3 by now but they have been so busy they just did the 90 day one. He got an awesome review. I'm so proud of my hubby. =)

Lazy!

It was a lazy day yesterday. I pretty much just laid around watching TV and playing with Little Guy. I never did get Boater to put those knobs on. We moved the DVR receiver to the living room. I like it our there but usually at night I'm on my computer while I watch TV , it's not that I can't watch TV where my computer is it just don't have my shows that I record and watch at night. Boater bought me a new desk and I am trying to get him to put it together but now he say'd he don't know if he wants it in the living room. Well thats the reason why we bought it in the first place and plus I want to either make this room a nursery or a play room for Little Guy,hopefully it's a nursery =) . I am trying to talk him in to buying me a new computer when the taxes come in and we pay off my credit card but he said he wants a lap top I don't want a lap top!!
Well I stopped taking those hormones on Saturday. I go only 1 1/2 days and get my period. The doctor said I'de get it with in 2 weeks. I was hoping to go at least a week with out it, but now that I think about it this just means I can start taking the clomid sooner =) I will be starting that on Friday Yippee!! I am hoping it works the first time but it probably won't but I am going to think positive. I was very crampy last night, I haven't really been crampy like that in a long time.
Not much going on today. I have a few loads of laundry to wash and unload and reload the dishwasher, and I might go through some clothes
I have piled up in the bedroom.
Our Anniversary is coming up in a little over a month and I have no clue what to get Boater. It will be 11 years so I looked up what you give for the eleventh year and it say's steel. Anyone have any ideas? I'm just hoping it's better then our last anniversary. We had a big argument the night before and Boater didn't even say Happy Anniversary to me or get me anything not even a card. I was so upset . So I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this one will be a great one. It's on a Friday so I'm going to see if he could work that Monday instead of Saturday. So we can go out and celebrate. I might see if my sister will take Little Guy for the weekend.
Well I guess I've bored ya's enough =) I hope everyone has a great day!!

Our Sunday

Little Guy decided to wake me up at 6:45 AM I tried to get him back to sleep but that didn't happen, so I changed and fed him. Then off to finally look for those cat carriers. Had to clean them they were very dusty, hadn't used them since we took them to get fixed and that was probably 6 years ago. I cleaned the litter box real good and put it in a plastic bag and put just a little bit of litter in it incase they had to go before my sister took them home with her. Well after that I needed a shower so I thought I would take Little Guy in with me to save time. He really doesn't like a shower but he did pretty good in it yesterday besides the fact that he peed on me once in the shower and twice after we got out. Boater was getting all the kitchen stuff out of the bedroom and running all the dishes through the dishwasher and putting other stuff away and getting rid of stuff we probably wouldn't use. I would really like to get a new microwave. The one I have is nice but I would like a stainless steel one to match the rest of the appliances. The one we have is white. Little Guy fell a sleep around 12 watching spongebob one of his favorites. I tried to take a short nap but thats when my sister got here and that made the dog bark so Little Guy woke up. He slept for like an hour. My brother moved in with her so he came with her to get the rest of his stuff. I told him I was gonna miss my babysitter ..lol Little Guy's gonna miss him. My brother might be an asshole a lot of times but he has always been great with Little Guy and Little Guy just loves him so much. He calls him rar cuz my brother will chase him around and act like a monster...lol he can say Jeff but it cute hearing him come up with little nicknames for ppl. He started calling my sister lala , we have no clue why. The only thing she could think of was when she had him for the weekend a few months ago she was singing to him. So then it was time to get the cats into the carriers . My one cat was no problem getting in there even though I had to push him in it. The other one got up into a little space under the bed I had such a hard time just reaching to try and grap him but I finally got him and looked at Boater and he finally asked me if I needed help (men) but then again he was busy getting the kitchen straightened out. I just didn't want to get all scratched up. Poor cats were just meowing like crazy and the one cat sounds just like a baby its so weird..lol I called my sister later just to see how they were doing, she said they were hiding behind the couch..lol the usual when they go to a new place. I do miss them and I did cry after they left. I felt like a big baby, but they aren't gonna be abused and they'll still be together. We just chilled the rest of the night. Played with Little Guy and watched some TV which is hard when Little Guy is up. He did fall a sleep around 10 Boater and I were watching Masters of Horror . Has anyone watched that? It's a series on Showtime. If you like horror you'll like this very disturbing...lol Not to much planned for today I might get Boater to put the knobs on the cabinets. I am tired of having to open them from the corners and breaking my nails...lol. I hope everyone had a great weekend and I hope Java-Mama is feeling better. Have a great day!

A Miserable Day!

When I got up yesterday I must have moved the wrong way and pulled something in my neck. I'm not sure if it was a muscle or a nerve. Then I started getting a headache, by the time it was ready to put Little Guy down for his nap it was a full blown migrain =( . I layed on the comfy loveseat and fell a sleep. Boater came home which woke me up and he was like whats wrong with you. So I told him and he said get into bed and he even tucked me in =). Little Guy kept coming in the room saying mama up so I got up a little after 6 PM and felt a little better. We ordered pizza for dinner which is one of Little Guys favorite but we don't get it that often so Boater started feeding him until he choked on a piece so I finished feeding him. He can feed him self but he shoves way to much in is mouth we are working on that. He is getting better =). I did notice I was spotting so that had me upset but it stopped. We had a pretty good night my headache was coming back though. I put Little Guy to bed by 11 PM and watched Days, I wanted to watch Passions but I couldn't stand the pounding anymore so I layed down on the couch didn't want to bother Boater since he had to get up at 2:30 AM for work. Then after laying down for a little bit trying to go to sleep I had to jump up and run to go visit the porcelain god I hate getting sick but then again who does. So I go and try to go to sleep and guess what ? Knock, Knock, Knock Little Guy woke up, so I took him out on the couch with me until Boater woke up then Little Guy's like daddy and went in the room with him I had such a hard time getting him to get in bed with me. I think we finally went to sleep around 4-4:30 . We got up this morning around 9 AM I feel a little better but not 100 %. I have to find those cat carriers and get them washed up I'm sure they are dusty from sitting around, my sisters coming tomorrow to pick them up. I sure am gonna miss them.

2005 Year In Review::

I know this is a little late =)

2005 Year in ReviewBorrowed from 3 Guy's a Girl and a Blog
Please play along and post one in your blog too! Let me know if you do so I can read yours too!!
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BEST MEMORY: Boater getting a great job with great pay & bennifits.

WORST MEMORY: My brother trying to cut his wrists in front of me.

FAVE SONG OF 2005: The one that comes to mind is You & Me from Lifehouse

FAVE MOVIE/DVD of 2005: haven't really watched any Little Guy keeps me busy =)

FAVE NEW TV SHOW of 2005: Ghost Whisper

FAVE MUSIC CD of 2005: sad to say but I didn't get any cds this past year

FAVE BOOK I READ in 2005: again sad to say but didn't read any except kids books

FAVE NEW FOOD in 2005: hmmm I don't think I tried anything new

MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS in 2005: hmmm Being a good mom and wife =)

MY HOPES/WISHES for the NEW YEAR, 2006: That my family and friends stay happy and healthy all year long! (ditto Ali & Java)
That we get pregnant soon with baby #2 and that she or he is healthy, and I have a great pregnancy =)
That Little Guy keeps growing and learning like all normal kids.
That my mom can stop working 2 jobs and take some time to herself.

FAVE NEW WEBSITE of 2005: I have 2 the first is Moms-Online I have met some wonderful women there and feel that I now have a second family, and Blogger. I have really enjoyed blogging and learning more about my friends. Thanks Ladies at Moms-Online for introducing this to me.

Before I was a Mom.

I was looking around online and found this poem and wanted to share with everyone. =)

"Before I Was A Mom"
Before I was a Mom I made and ate hot meals.I had unstained clothing.I had quiet conversations on the phone.
Before I was a Mom I slept as late as I wanted.And never worried about how late I got into bed.I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.
Before I was Mom I cleaned my house each day.I never tripped over toys or forgot words to lullabies.
Before I was a Mom I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom I had never been puked on, pooped on, spit on, peed on, or pinched by tiny fingers.
Before I was a Mom I had complete control of my mind, my thoughts, my body and all my feelings.I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests or give shots.I never looked into teary eyes and cried.I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.I never knew that I could love someone so much.I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.
Before I was a Mom I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was OK.I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much............
before I was a Mom.

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AHHHH....

Yay!! We got our furniture today. It is so comfy. The loveseat rocks and reclines (thats my favorite piece). The couch also reclines on both emds. The coffee table's top extends so you could write, eat ext. We looked at them and all they had were ones that were better for like a sectional, we didn't even know this did that until they brought it in to the house it had lifted up a little. The lamps were in a box and Boater got them out and the glass was not in them so he had me look for instructions and it didn't have any, so he took them apart some to get the glass in then after he got them both done he realized how the glass fit in them and he didn't have to take them apart ....LMAO (men) Boater has already broke it in napping on it. Here are some pics.


I couldn't really get good pic's these just don't do it justice...lol Not to much going on you know same shit different day =) . My sister will be taking the cats this weekend. I have to find and clean their carriers. I can not wait to stop taking these hormones, I have been such a bitch the past few day's I can hardley stand myself...lol but hopefully it will all be worth it in the long run. I took something called provera last time when I was trying to get pregnant with Little Guy and the side effects were a lot better then with this prometrium. Well gotta run Little Guy's upset cuz daddy went to bed.

A Nice Day at Home.

We spent the day inside which was nice plus it's raining outside (Ali did you send that rain my way) =) Boater is into trains right now so he has been trying to build and put together a layout for it with houses and water towers, and other stuff, he even got stuff to make mountains. I can not wait to see his finished product..lol We took the Christmas tree and decorations down it only took us like 1/2 hour to 45 minutes. You should have seen me trying to hand him the tree so he could get it in the attic. I have been on that prometrium for 5 days now, it is a hormone and boy have I been crabby. I'll take the pills and then like an hour or so my mouth gets really dry and my equilibrium is off . It looks like I'm drunk . Little Guy is loving the train or choo choo as he calls it. He has been such a little stinker today. I can not wait to get our furniture. It is so bare out in the living room. I'll have to post pics when we get it =) I hope everyone has a great day!

Our New Year's Eve =)

Well since Boater didn't want to go over my sisters we stayed at home with our Little Guy. I am so glad we did. We had a nice evening I didn't get piss drunk =( I had a headache so I only drank like 1 pack of mudslides. We watched our local news station for the count down they have like 18 minutes of fireworks with music. Little guy kept saying ohhh snow...lol It was so cute. I got him to bed around 12 :45
Boater put together his little workhorse he got for Christmas and he has not left it alone. We are just gonna chill today we might get some of the kitchen stuff out of our room and start getting this kitchen in order. Tomorrow we will be taking our Christmas tree down. To bad we can't just throw it upstaires like it is and that way we won't have to worry about decorating it next year...lol I hope everyone had a great New Years Eve!! =)